So you probably noticed I didn’t update last week, which would normally mean I lost me and Nikki’s little contest, but I used the “I am moving and have no internet” exception. So I’m still in the running, but now I’m out of the habit, and posting a new update has been an uphill battle. So because its saturday and midnight is the deadline I guess I’ll go with the only thing I can think of to write about. which is why I need this deadline I suppose because this is as good a post as anything, really.
So I guess the easy part would be to transform the comment I never left at Nikki’s blog and turn it into part of this. Her blog was about what she wants to do with her life, you know simple easy stuff. But I’m sure everyone thinks about that stuff, and people who have stopped thinking about it are boring and not worth talking about. or even to, anyways. She wants to be an eternal student, but not a starving artist, I think I would like just the opposite personally.
The life of an artist is something I’ve always wanted, but never given myself real permission to do. Its always felt like thats the easy way out. But I’m still not sure what else I would WANT to do with my life. Meanwhile no matter how hard I try I can’t get away from comics. Perhaps, its time to admit that it is my true passion. I can be a successful comic artist, and what I’m scared of is the amount of ego it takes to say that with confidence. Sure most comic artists online never make a profit, but thats because, even discounting people not trying to be great, everyone else really freakin sucks. And I won’t be so self deprecating to say believe that those idiots are on an equal footing as me.
Maybe I’m wrong though and I’ll end up starving to death for my art, wouldn’t that suck. But I don’t think I will. I guess this means I have to start prepping to do 5 comics a week in addition to any weird random side comics I’d like to do. But I’ve been working a little towards that this week and I am beginning to think that doing 5 comics a week may be paradoxically easier then 3 somehow. at the very least not updating 5 times a week is as easy as not updating 3 times a week.
I am growing more confident in this decision every time I think about it. I know I can be professional, because I know how I want to be treated as the reader. I’ve also been listening to web comic creators talk having found a few more web comic related podcasts, and I’ve realized that people with no confidence in there own work are boring to listen to. so theres no point in falling over yourself to be humble. It actually comes off as a little insulting, to people who are listening so theres no point in it. I really enjoy my comics, and would probably enjoy reading them if I wasn’t the artist. I don’t think theres any reason to be ashamed of that is there?
I also got other plans some involving this blog related to this. I might put some piccys up of the apartment tomorrow if I can get a set of batteries that work.
